surfing lovesickness
melancolonic knots tug
grief with gratitude
a gradual dawn
black to purple to lilac
then the sun awoke
kaleidoscopic
colored realizations
dance in her daydreams
I do not exist
for anyone's approval
not even my own
a dragon was born
amidst the dark underworld
fierce and protective
a serpent within
slithers and coils in a knot
hissing a clear no
they left each other
pained to leave and to be left
her first and then him
just because I don't
always have a quick response
doesn't mean I'm lost
'twas Jekyll for years
with only two hints of Hyde
until the great flip
two souls of true love
committing the same sly crimes
hindsight sheds the light
contempt the reaper
killed the foundations of trust
both sides are guilty
my greatest teacher
in holding complexity
beyond black and white
ganja clouds obscured
clear seeing ability
disguised as the truth
you helped me break through
some of my deepest patterns
with your love and wrath
I always did like
curiously picking scabs
but now I leave them
one day she woke up
feeling her deepest patterns
disintegrating
deep down your soul knows
why I had to walk away
let there be respect
